*I know this is a tad Emo of me, but here it is nonetheless.

I always knew
The hollow beat, forced out and croaking
I was never wrong.

Repeat, pretend
Not from my lips, but it chokes me
Fill your part

Recycle the false
The pit swallows whole my gut
Pukes up the truth

And I always know.

Miles Away

Miles Away
I want you and you are not here. I pause
in this garden, breathing the colour thought is
before language into still air. Even your name
is a pale ghost and, though I exhale it again
and again, it will not stay with me. Tonight
I make you up, imagine you, your movements clearer
than the words I have you say you said before.

Wherever you are now, inside my head you fix me
with a look, standing here whilst cool late light
dissolves into the earth. I have got your mouth wrong,
but still it smiles. I hold you closer, miles away,
inventing love, until the calls of nightjars
interrupt and turn what was to come, was certain,
into memory. The stars are filming us for no one.

--Carol Ann Duffy


The pics above are from a show I was watching today on Nature called Land of the Falling Lakes. I don't think I have seen anything as beautiful, stunning, and peaceful as that place in my entire life. It's like an enchanted forest. I want to go there and hide.

Currently watching : Nature: Land Of the Falling Lakes Release date: By 29 June, 2004

BSG Music Rocks

I WANT THIS!!!! I finally sat down and looked up the lyrics for one of my favorite shows, and found out there ARE real words. Its all sung in other languages like Sanskrit. Cool? Yes.

Battlestar Galactica Soundtrack

Currently listening : Battlestar Galactica: Season One By Bear McCreary Release date: By 21 June, 2005

What is this!?!?!? What have I done?!!!!

I decided to get ‘experimental’ with food today, and in a way that probably makes my hubby glad he’s not here. He hates it when I cook without a recipe, and call it ‘experimenting.’

So anyway, I decided to see what happens when you combine these yummy fresh strawberry, sliced up, with some honey, and apply some heat. The resulting hot sweet mess was very tasty, and had a slightly gelatin-like thing going on. So then I didn’t know what to do with it. I could have put it on top of some ice cream or make a strawberry shortcake, but I had the stuff for neither. So I got gutsy and threw in some quick oats and water, and cooked for a bit longer. Then I rolled the partially cooled mixture into some cling wrap. Its setting in my fridge right now, looking like a giant red tootsie-roll. Is there a name for this sweet strawberry concoction I have created?

Witless Computer Tech, Me.

I'm such a silly witless computer tech when it comes to home computing. If it's not work computers I just generally don't think too hard about it. So when I first got here I plugged in to see if there was a free/cheap connection, with no luck. No way I'm spending $40/month on internet. Why did I not plug in my wireless card? Because I'm not at home and I'm not in a hotel, and that's where I've ever used wireless. Also, because I'm a dork.

Yeah, so my roomie was complaining about not getting good signals in here. I thought she was talking just about cell reception, and then it dawned on me....WIRELESS YOU COMPUTER DORK! So yeah I'm mooching off nearby connections hahahah.

Long story short (ok, long story long), my roomie's standards are way too high, because for me 5.5mbps is good enough for posting on myspace. Yay Internet!

Sadly you won't be hearing from me any more often than before this, as I am being worked to death on 14 hour shifts for the next few weeks. I should be asleep right now, since I have to wake up in like 5 hours to get ready for work. I got home today and my boots where the only thing holding my feet together.